urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination When the Pretty Leaves you kafination 2007-04-07T02:58:11Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:100876 2007-04-07T02:58:11Z 2007-04-07T02:58:11Z <p align="center"><font color="#ff0000" size="2">I <u><font color="#000000"><em>feel</em></font></u> like i want to <strong><em><u>DIE</u></em></strong>.&nbsp;<br />I mean, I'm not losing him or anything, but in the physical sense i am... I know we've only been together a few months but it feels like its been forever and i know its will last. For a guy that i hated a year and a half ago, he has become my future. Lets just say I'm hesitant to lose that comfort. I know that anyone reading this may think i am over-reacting like i usually do... Yes, in a sense I very well might be. What's even worse though is that we've madeso many plans for the future and now half of them are gone with this move. We were going o move in together six months from now. Now he has to live with his parents and be truency free for the next six school months... so if we are still going to move in together, it has been pushed back at least&nbsp;8 months, if not more... He was going to be my savior. He named our kids for lord's sake! and if things still move along the way they have been, we were going to get married. not right after high school, but two years after, before he joins the navy and goes off for four years.&nbsp;<br />I <u><font color="#000000"><em>feel</em></font></u> like my heart has been ripped out and stomped on with a high heeled shoe, while its&nbsp;still <strong><em><u>BEATING</u></em></strong>.</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:100810 2007-04-06T15:53:39Z 2007-04-06T15:53:39Z He had to go to court for his attendance yesterday and well, he has to stay with his family by court order...<br />when he came back to school he looked so sad... so very sad. whne I asked how it went, i expected something bad, but really, it isn't so awful. He said that he got a fine of $250. He also said he had to stay with his family by court order, which means he will be movign to portland afterall. On Monday he is withdrawing from King and going to start at GP... <br />He says he's sorry because he feels like all our plans are ruined. <br />Yes they are James, but I can forgive you.<br />We can make new plans.<br />I was looking foreward to our escape. Now I will only see him once a week, if that... I know I'll miss him more than anyother guy I've ever been with and I don't know if I'll be bale to survive this heartbreak this time around. <br />Believe it or not, but we have planned our entire lives together. <br />I don't know what I'm going to do without him. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:100383 2007-03-15T15:28:33Z 2007-03-15T15:28:33Z he was going to move to portland unless he moved in with a friend. we had been having trust issues.<br />here is his appology:<br /><br /><br />baby im sorry for being a dick about the whole trust thing i dont care if i know i know you trust me you have to lol imean you are letting me roomate with one of the opposite sex <br /><br />its almost definate that i might live with her but i think its better than leaving you here in corpus i could never leave you....... you mean every thing to me if i ever lost you i would probably go insane you are the closest thing to my heart and always will be the happiness i fell from just hearing your voice is enough for me to take on anything the world has to throw at me seeing you is even better. your beautiful face makes me go insane you are always on my mind and when i hold you life should just freeze in that one moment and we should just sit there to linger..... <br /><br /><br />i love you <br />p.s. i dont want to be grammatically correct <br />so i didnt proof read it <br />i just thought i sould let it all out :D <br />love you so much <br />Miller urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:100221 2006-09-03T21:12:45Z 2006-09-03T21:12:45Z Brandon asked me out last night and I said yes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:99016 2006-05-08T00:52:05Z 2006-05-08T00:52:05Z <img alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/994/593/400/prom.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:98248 2006-03-25T17:16:17Z 2006-03-25T17:16:17Z Well I've been talking to this guy named Rocky. He is a senior at carroll and he's in the army. He seems almost too good to be true. Why would someone like him be intrested in me? Well, even if anything were to happen, doubt it, He ships out July 4th then six months after that, he's going to Iraq. So there is not point getting attached. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:97873 2006-03-22T00:39:22Z 2006-03-22T00:39:22Z I got my braces off. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:97271 2006-01-17T00:11:56Z 2006-01-17T00:11:56Z well. today was the same as usual. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:96884 2005-12-28T03:35:52Z 2005-12-28T03:35:52Z i was talking to this freshman named clint over myspace.<br />he seems pretty cool urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:96435 2005-12-09T00:09:38Z 2005-12-09T00:09:38Z Its been a while hasn't it?<br />I found out Samantha, not only cheated on one of my best friends, but is now cheating on another. What a whore. I have a new love intrest for those of you who don't already know. His name is stephen, hes quite nice actually. We're "talking", to put it into simple terms, yet, this often happens to me without results. So don't get too excited kiddies. <br />-----Tim just called to let me know he found my history book outside! THANK GOODNESS! I thought i had lost it.-----<br />Yes, well anyway, Brett cut off all of his lovely hair! <br />Tomorrow is annual inspection for rotc. I hope i can achieve a circle ten. If i don't, thats ok.Then afterwards, i'm gettin picked up so i can get ready to leave to San Antiono. I will be attendin the wedding of a cousin i have never met. Its ok though, i met her sister last year at her wedding. She seemed nice. Well, I'm sure whoever is reading this is tired of hearing abotu my insignificant life. I bid you adieu, until another day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:95866 2005-11-22T03:38:25Z 2005-11-22T03:38:25Z <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/L/LA/LAD/LadyTigerEyes/1132013759_res1dragon.jpg" border="0" alt="dragon"><br><b>DRAGON</b><br><br>You are the dragon. A dragon,<br>in western lore, is a giant lizard with wings.<br>It usually has the capability to breathe fire.<br>The dragon symbolizes immense power, physical<br>strength, and courage. The dragon has also been<br>a symbol of wisdom and of protection. Dragons<br>may also appear to be greedy as many a tale<br>depict them as keepers of vast hordes of<br>treasure.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/LadyTigerEyes/quizzes/Which%20mythical%20creature%20resides%20in%20your%20soul%3F%20(11%20Results%20%2B%20Pictures)/"> Which mythical creature resides in your soul? (11 Results + Pictures)</a><br> <font size="-2">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:95619 2005-11-22T03:20:07Z 2005-11-22T03:20:07Z fire likes me<br /><br /><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/I/IM/IMS/imsombodysbaby/1132517928_monicfire..jpg" border="0" alt="HASH(0x8cabbb0)"><br>The Land of Harmonic Fire<br /><br />You are a passionate warrior of the Land of<br>Harmonic Fire. You represent a calm fire rather<br>than a raging blaze. You are not hot-tempered.<br>But you do have a streak of irrational passion.<br>When you are angry you choose to fight with<br>your hands. It gives you more satisfaction.<br>Your fire represents the new birth of life,<br>hence your symbol and friend the phoenix.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/imsombodysbaby/quizzes/What%20is%20the%20mystical%20land%20of%20your%20birth%3F%20%7B13%20results%20with%20gorgeous%20anime%20pics%7D%20/"> What is the mystical land of your birth? {13 results with gorgeous anime pics} </a><br> <font size="-2">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:95368 2005-11-18T22:59:25Z 2005-11-18T22:59:25Z I'm going to naval ball with Stephen West.<br />Yay? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:95205 2005-11-16T23:10:41Z 2005-11-16T23:10:41Z i hate everything abtou you.<br />why do i love you? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:94908 2005-11-09T23:09:35Z 2005-11-09T23:09:35Z you walked me to my car again, leaving sam after she begged and clinged to you and said not to go with me. thanks. that is why i like you. you pick me over just about everyone and it makes me feel loved. i know you only love me as a sister, and i can't change that. However, i'd rather be loved as your best friend, than be hated as an ex. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:94691 2005-11-06T18:27:19Z 2005-11-06T18:27:19Z going to the movies tonight<br />6:30 century 16 to see saw II<br />please come if you can.<br />if you can't, i still love you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:94153 2005-10-16T23:36:47Z 2005-10-16T23:36:47Z "send the pain below" chevelle <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/W/WA/WAT/waterytart/1129069263_demon.JPG" border="0" alt="demon"><br>A demon watches over you. You may find yourself at<br>times wishing those you dislike dead.<br>Sometimes, you may find yourself being jealous.<br>Anger can often get the best of you. You are a<br>unique individual. Overall though, you are a<br>kind person with a big heart. Your demon is<br>always watching over you. Though a demon may<br>seem like evil is watching you, it is not true.<br>Your demon is on neither side; good nor evil.<br>Your demon is on your side. Your demon is<br>constantly protecting and guiding you down the<br>right path for you in life.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/waterytart/quizzes/Who%20is%20your%20soul%20guardian%3F/"> Who is your soul guardian?</a><br> <font size="-2">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:93888 2005-10-15T02:57:39Z 2005-10-15T02:57:39Z SPENCER AND BINCA!<br />IT WAS AWESOME SEEIN YA'LL LAST NIGHT! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:93523 2005-10-10T23:32:28Z 2005-10-10T23:32:28Z <font color="#3366ff" size="5"><em><strong>YES I'M ONE STEP CLOSER TO GETTING MY <font color="#3366ff">LICENSE</font>!</strong></em></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:92565 2005-09-17T22:53:12Z 2005-09-17T22:53:12Z "breathe" i made-up with him this morning. we had fun.<br />he declared that i'm one of his best friends.<br />i was astonished. O.O<br />i like him more than i liked micheal. <br />which is a big deal.<br />i guess that means i'm finally over him?<br />but he told me more things that made me feel bad again.<br />but he also did some things that made up for it.<br />like accidentily stepping on my poor toe.<br />which is all bruised now.<br />but thats okay.<br />i think i've gotten closer to him in the past three weeks than i ever have been to anyone.<br />its odd.<br />i really care abotu this guy.<br />and after everything he told me last night, <br />i don't want anything to happen.<br />he's had such a bad life.<br />but he's a great person.<br />those people missed out on the most wonderful person i've ever met. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:92000 2005-09-16T00:34:11Z 2005-09-16T00:34:11Z vindicated "dash board confessional "hey, i seen you this weekend"<br />"you seen me"<br />"yea i seen you"<br />"you mean you saw me?"<br />"yea whatever"<br />"are you sure? where? i don't think i even left home."<br />" i dunno but i seen you"<br />he's dumb but i like him nonetheless<br /><br />he makes weird faces to keep from smiling and i love it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:90224 2005-09-02T01:15:10Z 2005-09-02T01:15:10Z <p><font color="#33ff33" size="6"><strong>Movies</strong></font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000"><strong>Red</strong> </font>Eye</p> <p>rated <font color="#006600"><strong>PG</strong></font>-13</p> <p>@<font color="#ff99ff"><strong> 1:30</strong></font> Pm</p> <p>@ Century <font color="#66ffff"><strong>16</strong></font></p> <p><strong><font color="#66ffff"></font></strong>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:85652 2005-08-09T17:25:19Z 2005-08-09T17:25:19Z <a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v163/guitarlord/MSRockin.jpg">http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v163/guitarlord/MSRockin.jpg</a><br /><br /><br />online friends amuse me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:84095 2005-08-03T18:48:51Z 2005-08-03T18:48:51Z <table style="color: black;" width="400" align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"> <tr><td align="center" bgcolor="#C2F3FF"><br /><h3>Kathleen Castillo's Aliases</h3><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#88EAFF"><br />Your movie star name: <b>Cheese! Alberto</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#C2F3FF"><br />Your fashion designer name is <b>Kathleen France</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#88EAFF"><br />Your socialite name is <b>Kaffy L.a.</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#C2F3FF"><br />Your fly girl / guy name is <b>K Cas</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#88EAFF"><br />Your detective name is <b>Tiger King</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#C2F3FF"><br />Your barfly name is <b>Cheetos White Russian</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#88EAFF"><br />Your soap opera name is <b> Whitaker</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#C2F3FF"><br />Your rock star name is <b>Candy Straws Love</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#88EAFF"><br />Your star wars name is <b>Kativy Casmic</b><br /></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#C2F3FF"><br />Your punk rock band name is The <b>Down To Earth Pencil</b><br /></td></tr></table><br /><br />i swear i'm gonna start a band so i can name it the down to earth pencils urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kafination:82101 2005-07-27T22:29:32Z 2005-07-27T22:29:32Z i saw sean at the game yesterday. <br />he poked me.<br />BAD SEAN!<br />i don't liked being poked XP.<br />well i'm going again tonight!<br />yay.